On Being Alive

Being alone and being still is the most explosively infinite situation one can be in; the sheer possibility that stems from just being alive and not being physically committed or interfered with in any way is just overwhelming – in the state of awareness, where I Am.

When in the state of the mind, boredom, depression, and extreme restlessness and panic-episodes are the dominant state of consciousness when one is alone.

One life, this consciousness could cease at any instant, live it, live it for you, by you, as you. The you that is far deeper than form and concept, that is the master of the mind.


There are only three things I know. One is that I Am, and that I am alive, and that I exist. Another is that I will die, this consciousness will cease, and I will never until death, if then, know what, if anything, lies on the other side of life. And third, that I want to feel positive, want only positivity, and that I could do without any negativity in my life.

The only deduction on how to live my life from these three truths, that makes any sense and perfect sense at the same time, is that I will live each sacred moment with complete positivity and pay no heed to that which I do not need in my life; negativity and counter-intention.

Our consciousnesses are island universes. We have our own perception of the entire universe, and therefore the size of the entire universe, in each of our heads, and us and only us will ever know what it is to live in that island universe.

When one becomes aware of awareness itself, one discovers the ever unfolding, completely and eternally private relationship that one has with the universe. This discovery brings about a very profound change in life experience, and every moment, however seemingly exciting or mundane to the mind, feels sacred and equal in quality to any other moment anywhere in any time and any space.

Lack of awareness and grounding cause loss of self. The mind attempts to construct a self because there is no self. It frantically creates a highly dysfunctional and disjointed entity that is a separate, diseased apparition, and this diseased apparition becomes what you think is ‘you’. The mind uses scrap and dirt and whatever it can readily obtain and relate to. It creates itself based on the bits and pieces it finds around, based on false limitations from past experiences, leaving your life almost completely out of your control. You become another miserable apparition that hates what ‘life is dealing to him’.

In awareness however, this vacuum does not exist. With awareness comes an infinitely deep sense of I Am, an I Am that transcends all boundaries, all limitations, all labels, and all human paradigms. There is no vacuum to frantically fill, no void, and hence one finds oneself in the innate state of creativity, expression, and infiniteness. All that exists now is possibility, and one meets reality halfway, affecting it just about as much as it affects you. Instead of being a dying, decaying entity that takes beating after beating from reality, one finds oneself in a curiously homely and perfectly natural state of romancing the universe, of awe and amazement, of love and connectivity, of playfulness and genuine unison of all consciousnesses interacted with.


Life is lived most awesomely, beautifully, and perfectly when one’s relationship is with the universe and with life itself, and one explores the brief world shown to him with infiniteness, abundance, and unbridled brilliance and intensity. Most humans’ sense of self is embedded in their relationships and stem from outside perception, or rather perception of outside perception, instead of from the reality within.

We dream-walk and sleep away most of our ridiculously short lives, without any knowledge of what lies on the other side of the veil, without awareness of being alive itself.